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So I bought an Suv.  I said I never would but i did.  This is a good thing for my family a bad thing for me.  I've been super stressed since i made the deal because I have learned to fear spending money above all other things.  Unfortunately that coupled with my inability to deal with my feelings in an appropriate manner I have been lashing out at my queen.  Apparently the sheer terror of buying a new vehicle i am not sure i can afford has caused me to become an asshole.  I am so worried about having the money to pay for it that I don't want to spend money on anything else for a while.  I know that i am making good money and as of now it looks as though i will sail through my probation period at work without a hitch.  I have however made a very bad move by getting the truck before my probation is over.  I was anxious to begin paying it off though so i thought the sooner the better.  Now i just have to avoid anything negative at work for 2 more months :(  Needless to say that I am now back to my old paranoid, uptight emotional self with an un-needed tendency to lash out.  Although it's quieter than it was in the past it still unnecessary.

Anyway it's a neat truck and i get to drive it to work tomorrow.  my baby boy is going to love it.  He's getting so huge and i miss him all day at work.  and his momma.  And I look forward to hanging out with him when he's awake at home :) 


Hopefully I'll get over my headcase self and mellow out once a paycheck   or two goes by and i see that i can manage all the expenses and the baby needs on one income.  This is all new to me.  I'm terrified.  As well i need to make major lifestyle changes like refrain from smoking and drinking and go workout more often.  My back is killing me and I'm sure doing all this at once will be a piece of cake.  Or the death of me.  I guess in a way I have already died a little since i am not the person i was and all i need to do now is finish off the rest of me and become someone newer.

Pot Garden

I grew a little garden in some pots this year in the yard at the side of your old shed.  It was pretty good for a while and we definitely made the most of the basil plants which made my lunchtimes excellent by kicking my tomato sandwiches up a notch. BAM!  I grew 4 herbs, oregano, basil, thyme and the dreaded cilantro.  I hate cilantro but the lady digs it a lot.  Tragically Mr. Cilantro did not have enough pot (that'll make anyone unhappy) so he didn't really grow all that well and now he is nothing more than coriander seeds.  The tomato Plant grew big and tall and probably gave us about 9 tomatoes.  Three or Four were certainly not going to get eaten as they just looked bad and had some spots on them.  The one I did eat was yucky, and hopefully the rest will turn red soon and I can try again.    It's getting late in the season now and I am not sure if they will be good enough to eat or not but hey, if they're no good I can always throw them at some bleeding heart protesters.

 

Today's My Moms Birthday

Today's My moms Birthday and she's coming to watch the M.F. while I get the rest of the stuff out of my house next door and move it over here.  It's exciting and I have a gift for her that will likely make her cry tears of happy. 

In other news I HAVE 1 FOLLOWER.  Yaaaaaaaay.  Officially I have a fan base.

My First Blog Post

Because other people I know have created blogs, mainly Johny Cobra and his lady friend Missy Aggravation I have decided to create my own as I tend to forget everything and Cobra says it's a good way to keep track. Even the easy stuff.  I'm a new parent and it's not something I spent anytime in my life preparing for.  I spent a lot of time looking after other peoples kids and now I have my own.  I hope to use this space to keep track of my parenting attempts whether they be fails or successes and to have something for myself to look back on and hopefully learn from.  So for now here is a picture of my budding family at stage one.  The little Robot is about 6 weeks old and the rest of the robots are rusty and the nameplates are covered in grime.